Wednesday, February 14, 2007

I did what I have to

I wish I could write as good as somebody out there. No worries of vocabulary limitation nor grammar mistake. I always have problem with that. I knew there are times where only this particular language will make a good description on something. It's something that I call it as “stick to the origin”. Could I be stubborn? Let's just say that I persist to do so.

Come on, I know I am not that good. However, I love being myself rather than pretending to be someone whom I don't know. Even though at the end, I get myself in nerves; I will still stick to my instinct. Not trying to prove anything but just follows my heart. I did what I have to do, and feel good about it. That's it, not feeling guilty for misleading but just follows my intuition.

6 comments:

kai sing said...

just be yourself~~
i like the way you are now~~

Anonymous said...

This is cool girl! COOOL!
i always wonder should i follow the norm. To be part of the majority. when ppl around me told me to do so. to adapt to today's society. i'm so undecided.

leaf_xuan said...

Don't follow the norm if you feel something is not right with the norm. To be outstanding sometimes means weird, but as long as you do what you think is right, why bothers what the rest think. Believe me, the world is so huge that people who has the same thought like you might not be the one next to you.
Adapt? Just do what you think is right.

Anonymous said...

what if it is goin 2 look better if u r wif the norm. more acceptable. in my case i dun think there's rite or wrong, it's my style of living but to some, it's definitely not right because i din sms her a 'thank you' after she inform me sth. i'm so wrong when i din reply her msg bcos i tot it's x necessary. u know i know enough la. i dun like 2 force myself 2 talk n pretend i'm happy when i'm not. And it is such a big problem i dun hav time 2 chat wif them bcos i need more time 4 myself.

shit la, i think true frens r more about heart not words. but others dun think so. seems to them i'm selfish n self centered.

leaf_xuan said...

Well, in that case, maybe she is those type of people who wants to know whether you got her message so that she relieve herself. If it's so, and she is the only person that require this kind of response, why not you just send her one next time. However, you might end up to have non stop sms just to fulfilll her requirement. What a small dilemma. But don't worry.

On the other hand, have you come across that they might want to know you better? That's why they wish that you could spend some time talking to them? If so, you don't have to follow exactly what they wish. In fact, you let them follow your way. No words requires, just action. Let them discover that is your lifestyle-- you like to do things in such a way, that is the way you do things.

Sometimes, I think it is all about exposure, whether they have experience and learn before. If they have learn the essence to be a true friend, they will understand you sooner or later. If they don't, give them the chance to learn... Give them more time, ya! Meanwhile, don't concern too much, you will surely find someone who has wisdom like I do, haha, I want to perasan diri, can not is it?

That's my little suggestion to you. I will never ask you to follow the norm because I dislike to change just because of somebody's words or to fulfill their wishes without considering myself at the first place. For me, it doesn't sounds selfish, but it is about being responsible to myself. If you have this dignity, they will respect you. If they don't, then I can only wish that they will.

Anyhow, I think this is why Beans are Beans, we understand and we respect. Proud to be one! We care but we don't force.

Anonymous said...

Thanks. now only i realise i'm such a out-of-ordinary person. Ppl jz cantt accept my character. hu...

anyway, it's great 2 hav beans.